Remedy

You can plan, plan and plan yet really nothing can prepare you for anything. Life is so random and unexpected and sometimes it's beautiful and sometimes it sucks. Flying home I was prepared to be filled with dark thoughts....yet instead God didn't seem to like that...it became a remedy instead to self-loathing. So much has happened in 24 hours I would get sick of writing it all so I will attempt to summarize...

At the airport and on the way back, the friend I was flying back with started asking me about God, after I talked about ACF. It was intense....reminded me of myself a year and a half ago...just a barrage of questions....I’ve been answering many questions throughout the year...but it was NOTHING like this.....It was such a great joy to be able to share Him to someone, especially to someone that was as confused as I was. Such a good feeling to be able to look at him square in the eye and say YES every time he kept asking whether or not there was a God, and whether or not I loved Him. I cannot wait to be able to share my life as a Christian with people back home! SOOOO excited! Pray it goes well please!

During my flight I'm sitting next to a old guy, and in front and to the left...a very attractive girl had sat down. I started talking to the old guy about the relative importance of grades....and stuff, and a bit later the girl turns around and starts talking to me...

To keep it short, Taylor was brilliant…, a straight A's student, played and loved music, competed for dance nationally, and was athletic. Was in leadership and I could tell she really cared for people. She was going to UCSD next fall and lived in St. Louis...plus she wanted to be a pediatrician or something to do with neuroscience (like brain surgeon) like I did...

The more we talked…the more I respected her and realized how many interests we had together… we got off the plane…. she wanted to show me some singers she really liked, and I wanted to show her that ABSOLUTELY AMAZING mix of Love Story and Viva la Vida….she also lived in Chesterfield…. the city…. where I possibly might stay at over the summer. Yet….. I then also realized in terms of a relationship, how important being a strong Christian was to me. That despite everything all the shared interests, and similar passions, and infectious personality, very good looks ..…I couldn’t ever see myself in a relationship with her if she didn’t live her life for Him. This didn’t mean I wasn’t attracted to her, just couldn’t see myself with her. Didn’t even bother to ask for her phone number…though I should have done it…..been months since I’ve asked not in a school setting…..prob need practice….. Anyways….I now understand why Jimmy once said…being a strong Christian was the most attractive thing to him….


This trip showed me nothing's too late. Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.

I’ve got much more to write about….family…and friends….for starters…but those will be for another day….

I had a dream last night when….I woke up in CALIFORNIA!!!!