GOD

Reflection on yesterday...


Wow. This is ridiculous. Only you can turn a world that upside down. Going from walking aimlessly for hours until finally crashing on a couch to joyfully skipping for 15 minutes en route to the village the next day. All in the space of 24 hours.

So I woke up today groggy and unsatisfied. Frustrated and helpless enough already on what I have to do and then add on I have no control over other people's actions. If you truly cared about someone, you would do what's best for them. Always. Truly think about what it is and not delude yourself with your own wants and desires. A person's relationship with God is FIRST beyond anything. Never shall we tempt or cause anyone to stumble in that relationship.

Anyways. So I felt empty so I picked up my Bible and read. And read. And kept reading. I started praying while reading then pretty soon I started singing worship songs. The only thing I asked was for Him to satisfy me. For Him to fill my heart, and allow it to be enough. The more I was with Him the more I understood.

This LIFE is temporary....lets alone the temporary things in this temporary life. Why worry so much. He has the most glorious Kingdom prepared for us. He is EVERYTHING and has the power to change anything. We try to find satisfaction in things that cannot completely satisfy us. Things that will disappoint and fail us.

Even the best of them such as family and friends are not forever lasting. We seek affirmation everyday from people. And people SUCK and will hurt us. Why keep trying to find your true source of happiness there....On the other hand, if we try to find happiness in God. God will NEVER fail us. His love is infinity and everlasting and He will always satisfy you as long as you try to find it in Him.

As I was praying and singing the more of my happiness that I placed in Him, the more happy I felt. Not only do I feel satisfaction and joy from Him, I also have complete trust in Him that things will work out in this life. Even in these temporary things, He will take care of me. God is GREAT. I truly hope other people do not just place their faith in Him, but also their happiness and trust. With complete satisfaction/joy in God there will be no idols. Oh happy day, thank you Lord so much :D We're singing for the glory of the risen King!

The World

Wow. This week truly shows why the world sucks. (It's also only a Tuesday). Grief. Pain. Anger. Chaos. Why we are so imperfect. How far we all still are. How I long to be away from this world, but there is still so much work to be done.



James 4:3-4 (Phi) You don't get what you want because you don't ask God for it. And when you do ask he doesn't give it to you, for you ask in quite the wrong spirit--you only want to satisfy your own desires. You are like unfaithful wives, never realizing that to be the world's lover means becoming the enemy of God! Anyone who chooses to be the world's friend is thereby making himself God's enemy.


How true this is. How guilty of it I am. But. I will change. I am changing. For the Lord is everything.

Satisfaction

Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough?

Because I am human. I have been praying for the past month for the Lord to show me very clearly who He is so I could be satisfied. Be totally satisfied with Him and not look into worldly things for satisfaction.

We humans are always unsatisfied. Always wanting more in life. We find satisfaction in such little temporary pleasures. Coveting and wanting. Lust, eyes, and materials. These days I'm been doing a good job. Almost every time I feel an urge of unsatisfaction instead of calling a friend, playing a game...I go read the Bible.

So convicting these past few days. I asked for the Lord to reveal Himself to me and He did. Constantly slamming me again and again through the words of other people.

Then an ultimate test for me personally. I said to someone one of the hardest thing to do in life is to sacrifice your relationship with someone in order to truly help them. Then it comes and slams me in the face literally right away. Life is ironic. It is hard, but He is with me and it is enough.

Today is The Day

My heart is singing :D

Wow, I like happiness, it feel really good!!!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B300gQkgDS0

Repetition

Time won't let me go.....


Yet the standard has been set, it's hard to not chase after it...

Yet I will not chase after something that's already belongs to someone else.